It has occurred to me that I really haven't updated this in about 3 years. As you can probably guess, a lot has happened in three years. I have written some good stuff and some bad stuff. But none of it has found it's way here. Until now. I do believe that I will begin to update this thingy more often.

Who knows? Maybe he'll (my muse) come back to me

Another day another dollar... yeah right...

Nothing much has happened this summer... and I really want to go back to school. I wanna quit my job too, but hey one step at a time right? Haha

... like pain and it seems to never end.

People dying left and right. Don't get me wrong I know it's a part of life, but never before have I experienced so much in so little time. A year has passed and a total of four people, all of them younger than me, dead. Three of them suicide, one I'm sure an accident.

On top of this my friend is about to make a decision that will destroy her life. I know it will, but she doesn't see it.

The thing that really gets me is the fact that I can not do a single thing about any of this. I am completely helpless, with a life that needs to be lived.

One thing comforts me:
He will never put upon me, that which I can not bear.

I had to clean the grill today. No I know why people get so irate when they are on grill. I'm seriously irritated just at the sound of oxygen going into my body, heaven help the fly who dares buzzeth in my ear.

Gosh, short stories take so darn long to finish.... working on one for my English teacher... about a vampire... fun.

For those who don't know Begum Sahib means Princess of Princesses. I am a Princess, if you know/care or not is not of my concern. It's who I am. Like it or not.

I now I can come off as a serious biotech, but I really am nice... really.

.:eace::.